guess what? I’m a whole ass person.

In only a week, I’ve had multiple messages like this; “I am so attracted to you”“Please let me taste you.”“I am craving you.”“Would you be my friend with benefits for a short term type of thing?”“Why should you care about that, it’s not your marriage?”“I want to make you shake.”“You are so attractive.”“You know you…

feels like a trick

I Could Use A Love Song, Maren Morris Usually a drink will do the trickTake the edge off quick, sittin’ in the darkWith a shared cigaretteSeeing eye-to-eye, and heart-to-heartBut maybe I’m just gettin’ oldUsed to work but now it don’t A long gone driveYou know the kind where you take a turnAnd you don’t know…

hurt somebody, Noah Kahan

“People don’t want to be idealized, they want to be SEEN.” -Kayla Sharpe Taking it slowlyI’m afraid to be lonelyNobody told meIt’s harder than I thought to tell the truthIt’s gonna leave you in piecesAll alone with your demonsAnd I know that we need thisBut I’ve been too afraid to follow through Hold me close…

grippy sock vaca #1

Half of my people tell me I share too much, and half tell me I have so much more to share.Today I will try to find a balance between and say this; I committed myself for a few days for mental health treatment recently. There have been rumors and accusations as to why I was…

broken girl pieces

BROKEN GIRL PIECESfresh pagenew pagebroken girl pageI am the broken girlon the pageholding all my piecesas they shred meeach one piercing – cutting – tearing me apartchanging mebeautiful though they are I gathered all my pieceslast yearto celebrate agingto turn 40to accept myselfand yes this monththis month behind metook it all back apartonly now I…

cherish; to hold dear, to feel or show affection for, to keep with care, nurture

It’s taken me far too long to come up with this word. I’ve been casting around in my mind for this feeling, what it is I’m longing for and it finally came to me, as I lay on the floor of my twins’ bedroom while they fell asleep. I cried and for a bit I…

enough

I have long since said I don’t always know what I think or feel until I try to write it. The connect between some part of my brain and my hands is stronger than the one between my mind and mouth. I’ve recently written some things I didn’t know I was thinking about and now…

it is because they know you love them.

My friend told me I’m exceptional at loving people. I had said why DO people always tell me things? Is it because I am safe? And he said, it’s because they know you love them. And I think back to this time of year many years ago, I had just read Safe People and I…

i never saw you coming

State of Grace, Taylor Swift I’m walking fast through the traffic lightsBusy streets and busy livesAnd all we know is touch and goWe are alone with our changing mindsWe fall in love ’til it hurts or bleeds, or fades in time And I never (never)Saw you comingAnd I’ll never (never)Be the same You come around…

Treacherous, Taylor Swift

Put your lips close to mineAs long as they don’t touchOut of focus, eye to eye‘Til the gravity’s too muchAnd I’ll do anything you sayIf you say it with your handsAnd I’d be smart to walk awayBut you’re quicksand This slope is treacherousThis path is recklessThis slope is treacherousAnd I, I, I like it I…